Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Spiritualism, aliens, otherworldly realms make me very angry.
I'm just getting angry all the time now; I feel CUT OFF from whatever everyone else is experiencing. Even though I'm convinced THEY'RE the deluded ones with their contacts hither and yon and their visions of angels and demons alike.
I know this is daft, I mean why would you even wanna read this, right? But it's like I've been BANISHED from interaction with the Spritual World or whatever the dimensions, spirit, soul, channeling, mediumship, psychic powers, ghosts, poltergeists, aliens, chakras, past lives are. I've never had direct contact with such an 'ethereal realm'.
In fact, it feels like I'm being deliberately blocked from having ANY DIRECT ((conscious)) CONTACT with this realm. And, yes, I understand the statement, "Practise makes perfect."
For me (and I know this) God is just a bad joke foisted upon sheople who deserve to be ruled.
For me (and I know this) Soul is something you listen to on phonograms at 33rpm or 45 rpm.
For me (and I know this) Spirit Guides just don't have the map to my conscious psyche, if they're helping me right now, I can't sense it, never have, there's just an emptiness where 'my spirituality' is supposed to be.
The 'and I know this' bit is VERY IMPORTANT, I'm one of these 'atheist types' who's even more fundamentalist as the most fundamental religious nut. I know there's gonna be THOUSANDS, literally thousands, of You The People out there screaming at me in all the multi-dimensional ways they can muster, "Mike, you have to open your heart to the reality of spirit!"
Or some such. You can shout all you like. It won't help me.
Believe me, I've tried, to believe, to activate, to use the skills that we're all supposed to possess; tried to be like all of you with your messages from beyond and your astro-physical contacts galore. But, there's nothing there, for me. And I'm not just saying this to feel superior. I'm most angry about my inability to see this 'other reality'. I'm angry like a paraplegic might be really angry about the loss or his/her legs or arms or the use of his spine. For me it's bricks and mortar and three score years and ten. Just awaiting my inevitable death some time in the next thirty forty years.
Why this should make me angry, I have no idea. But it seems like just a pointless waste of talent, you know IF WE ALL HAVE IT. Admittedly, I have my wonderfully vivid and wacky dreams which I've documented many times and have allowed to structure the narratives of almost any book I've ever worked on. But that's not a conscious decision on my part, it's about getting a daft image prior to waking and using it like I used to use a random squiggle to create an image when I was a kid passing time drawing with my mum at home. That's not a so-called 'spiritual life', imho.
Why make us not believe or doubt or not know the mechanism of activation? I mean, why hide this shit from us, FOR FUCK'S SAKE?
Why would anyone design a (extra-dimensional) communication system that is so closed off from the many?
SUMMARY: some would say I'm being PSYCHICALLY BLOCKED, but of course I don't believe that crap.